OK, so this is going to sound overly dramatic... but I think that I am at the point where I need to stop making any social plans because odds are that I am going to have to cancel them anyways due to work anyways. Yes, when I am able to get together with people as planned I have a great time, however, because of my current work situation from the moment someone asks me to make plans with them up until 30 minutes before we are supposed to get together I have HUGE amounts of anxiety because I'm not sure if I'm going to have to cancel.
Some people feel comfortable just making plans and cancelling if they have to, but I'm not one of those people. I agonize over whether I am going to have to cancel. As a result, what is already a bad situation at work becomes unbearable when I have to cancel my personal plans.
I think that the only option I have at this point in order to keep my sanity is to just stop making any type of long term plan. Please feel free to email/call/text to make plans for that same day, but I can make any plans ahead of time until I figure out a way to deal with how I've been feeling.
Things just aren't working for me the way they are right now.
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